Two Things…

I guess I should actually use this more often then I have been. Anyways…

Two things have stopped my progress this year:

1. Complacency
2. Feeling unworthy

I grew up in a household that did a lot of comparing and never really celebrated the unique qualities that make a person. After a while, I just learned to create a little bubble of security and settle there. As much as this year has taken from so many people, that bit of understanding was something that I gained.

I can talk about how both of those things play so well together, but I wasn’t trying to make this particular post super long. What I will say is that choosing to intentionally be of service to others has allowed me to discover a little more of who I am…and I’m ok with that.

Can I be weird sometimes? Yup. I mean, I poke my little sister in the boob to show affection!

That was just the first example to come to mind so I’ll digress.

Whether I choose to be unusual, emotional, quiet, chatty, or stoic I NOW understand that God loves all of that.

So as I quickly write out my thoughts at 1:38a EST on December 31, 2020, I am making a decision to live. Like…really live.

Like doing whatever ‘it’ is, even if I’m doing ‘it’ afraid.

But knowing how loved I am in the process.

Dear friend,

God loves everything about you and those things you don’t like about yourself didn’t change how Jesus felt about you when He took your sins. He saw you right where you are -right now- and He loves you ever more 🙂

Crystal