The Sun is Coming…

Sometimes it’s cloudy
And the sun peaks out just long enough
To see another storm brewing.
But that’s ok.
Because right now…
The leaves are open
And the grass is fuller
And the clouds look like fluffy pillows
That lull you to sweet dreams
Right now the kids are playing
With no care in the world
Sincerity is seen in the eyes of neighbors
And a small smile with a gentle nods
Means, “I’m with you.”
Storms come
The winds grow heavy
And sometimes rain drops hit hard
Like a crashing wave
But the Sun is coming
And that’s reason enough to smile

Smile For Me

Hey king
Can you smile for me?
Please?
I know these past few months have been crazy
This last week along has been a roller coaster ride
There is a fight ahead of us
It’s unavoidable
Lives are forever changed
I just need your smile to stay the same
I hear your heart crying out
I see the anguish in your stare
The frustration in your silence is loud and clear
But baby, please, I’m still here
I need you to be ok
I need to feel your embrace
Even if it’s a little tighter this time
I’ll do my best to hold you up
You may not see a reason, but you’re breathing
So rest now
Regain your strength
When it’s time to fight I’ll be there with you
If only for a second
Just smile for me

Waves

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A snippet of a longer piece

To my husband…

I want to learn to swim in your thoughts.
To ride the current of your emotions
Even if it’s against the waves,
I want to learn to dive under the swells.
Reaching the faults that shift and cause the ripples
Floating on the crests of good times
Coasting through the troughs
I know sometimes it feels like tsunamis carry us to nowhere
But they can also push us to the edge of…soaring
I want to be your moon
A half one
Never full of myself
Guided by the light of the Son
So I can move you better

Let Love Grow…

Have you ever watched a flower bloom?
Watered with patience and time?
That’s the way my heart opened to you
The moment your fingers were acquainted with mine

It’s A Kiss

It’s a kiss that sets it off.
Removing the lid from an active volcano
Encouraging eruption
It’s a kiss that sparks the flame
Heart racing to spread the heat through the veins
Skin almost electric to the touch
It’s a kiss that sets the tone
Not a steady sprint to the finish
But a sensual playfulness that ascends to new levels
It is a kiss that opens the door to possibility
Encourages chivalry and submission
Education and acquisition
At the end of the day
A kiss shouldn’t be taken
But shared in hopes of forging a new beginning
It’s a kiss that seals the deal
The first one lets you know
The second just a reminder
The third brings concerns
A determination to never to let it go
Like air, you search for that familiar touch
That comfort and quiet confidence
That’s well worth the wait

Silent Exchange

Pretend for a second
That words meant nothing to either of us…

Let my touch say that I’m here
My stare says you’ve got my attention
A peck on the neck says I adore you
A kiss on the lips does not need mention

In the quiet of the night
When the bodies start to mingle
Would you bite your lips and smile
When your toes begin to tingle?

Will you maintain your resolve,
Enduring this silent exchange
First one to scream would be the loser
So we’d have to begin again.

I Want To Inspire (June 2014)

I am sharing this post that I wrote in 2014 to serve as a time stamp. Things are about to happen quickly…

I wish I could inspire

…and I desire to uplift

But this rift grows wider between God and I

He is revealing new things

But the day brings brutal winds

I bend, instead of standing firm in its midst

The word of God is my food

However, there are times when I choose not to eat

My feet chase after my mind

Which is running frantically in circles

My rest is fleeting

Anxiety reaching its highest pace

I search for comfort

I look for truth

But I cannot find it trying to please whomever

My son is healthy

He eats and sleeps well

He wants for nothing while I traverse this hell

I want to tell them it’s all working

Tell them to be strong

Tell them to keep pressing

Despite everything that seems to have gone wrong

No, I am not rich but I give what I have to all

I know what I want to do, but I must do what is called

I am not where I desire to be

But my best is still traveling through heavy traffic

I want to inspire others

But my wayward thinking

Prevents me from seeing

That…I already have

Escape

I screamed.

Yet no one heard through the motions of their own day

I cried out for freedom

But was stifled by the pressure of four walls closing in on my creativity

Expression relieves the build up of every day life

To silence that?

Well, that would mean drowning in the sea of thoughts

It could mean being anchored to the mundane when I was made to soar

It would mean…

Isolation

The created completely closed off to the Creator

I need freedom.

Most of all, I need Him

I must escape

Stillness

Life is the circus

It is joyful but it stinks at times

The busyness to impress the next is daunting

It takes its toll mentally

Placed on a pedestal for scrutiny

But when the crowd is gone

Satisfied by the show

The stillness is what I long for

The quiet,

Full of peace

With the tempo of a beating heart

Steady timing each breath

I am more than alive

I am truly living.

In the stillness I find Him smiling on me

His embrace warm and familiar

Worry lets itself out the door

As His train fills the room

In my stillness there is no hoping

Just a knowing

That He Is

Let Go

I trembled

Looking down at my raw wrists and blood stains

Almost choking on a sharp inhale

I let go

Finally.

The fear weighed down my right hand

While my left was bound with regret

I dragged them both toward my destiny

But they dug into my skin

The small steps didn’t hurt as much

Then came the leaps of faith

I tripped from the entanglement

I cried but to no avail

I wondered why I couldn’t get ahead

Took a knee to talk to Him

As I brought my hands up to my chest

They were busy