A Father’s Love (Eph. 1:5)

It was bright out.

The rays of light beamed through the paned window as the Father sat on its sill.  He turned His head and smiled, gazing out at all that is.  He listened to the laughter that echoed its way into the room.  It brought His heart so much joy to hear His children enjoying themselves.  He took pride in the work of His hands.

His hands.  Smooth like the silk of a rose petal yet strong enough to withstand the weight of the world. His gentle hands ready to give everything He owned to anyone willing to hold them.

“Abba?” a soft voice interrupted His thoughts.  “Are you ok?”

He turned with a warm smile and said, “All is well.”

     “Well, why do I have to leave You?” they asked, reticence in their tone.

His inhale was long enough to call in the deepest wave and His exhale calm and steady, just like the words that followed.

“Come, My child, I have a gift for you.” The young heart beamed with joy at the show of the Father’s love.  “This gift I give to you.  It will help you navigate your way until You come back to me.”

     “But I don’t want to leave you now.”

“I know, My child.  My love for you is so great that I’ll make sure you hear about Me.  I’ll be with you always.  You’ll see parts of Me, but you won’t see all of Me unless you choose to come back home.”

“Abba, why wouldn’t I choose to come home? You’re a good Father,” they leaped, “Better than any father anywhere!”

     He smiled at the innocence in the question.  “Come, My child,” He beckoned, inviting the young spirit into His embrace. 

                “The place I am about to send you is beautiful,” He smiled.  “It’s full of hidden treasures and experiences like no other.  You’ll even be able to see Me in a different way.”

“Hidden treasures? That sounds fun and all, but why can’t I just stay here with You?”

With an unimaginable gentleness, the Father laid His hand on His little one’s chest.

     “I want to bless you to be a blessing to others, to show them just how special they are and how much they mean to Me.  Some have lost their way, but I want to use you to help them find it.”

The little one sighed, letting His words penetrate their being before finally asking, “Will there be others like me?”

The Father anointed their head with a kiss, “Absolutely! You’ll know them when you see them.”

They both smiled at one another.

“Ok,” the little one stood, chest forward and legs strong, “I think I’m ready.”

The Father smiled.  “I know you are.”

Think Different, See Different

Hey Beautiful people!!!

It’s been a good little while since I made a post, but I am fixing that problem RIGHT NOW…by making a new one 🙂

Quick Background…

So I’m used to being in the background and in my own thoughts.  I’m great with writing, and speaking, but I prefer the former and not the latter. It’s been that way most of my life. 🤷🏾‍♀️

Like I’m really ok with helping others with their success and watching them bask in the fruits of their labors

But God saw differently

Over the last year or so, I have been doing outreach at my church. (Totally God’s idea, not my own)

So now, not only do I do outreach (Again, not my idea‼) I am one of the LEADERS of Outreach.🤦🏾‍♀️  So I have to teach others.🤦🏾‍♀️🤦🏾‍♀️

So now that you’re all caught up, I give you the reason for this little nugget that came to mind below:

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Yesterday, Jan 4th, was our very first outreach event of the year and it went great!!

17 people received prayer and 1 dedicated their life to God at a homeless shelter (Never thought I’d genuinely be excited about that! That’s for another post #YayJesus)

But I came across this one man who was ‘content’ with his homelessness. Somethings I just brush off, but this made me want to ask him questions.

Really and truly, he couldn’t give me a straight answer. He talked about Donald Trump, his education (HS and Community College graduate), he even boasted on the fact that the most money he’s ever had at one time was $2,000.

No 😐 he was legit happy about that.

But because of what I know about God, this was unsettling.  Of course I had a rebuttal.

“That’s not what God said He wanted for you, though. You were meant for more”

Boom.

I felt good about myself for a hot second- I thought it was mic drop worthy…ish, until he came back with his own…

“If I don’t think that applies to me, you can’t make me think otherwise.”

Although I was ready to jump in with scripture, God spoke to me and said, “Now you see what I see.” I couldn’t even say anything any more.

This was the whole reason why I do outreach!!

How many times have you seen others happy (blessed, prospering, free, etc.) and even thought for a moment, ‘That can’t happen for me’?

I’ll never do…
I can’t do…
I don’t see [blank] happening for me
[Blank] is not possible
I made too many mistakes to experience…

I’d be remiss if I didn’t offer scripture, so Proverbs 23:7 says “for as he thinks in his heart, so is he”

James 3 talks about how what we say can set the course of our lives, but it starts with what we think about ourselves.

In the age of information I find that the most bothersome thing is that people genuinely don’t know how much God loves them.

To the person on the other side of this screen, God loves you soooooo very much!! Think of the greatest love you’ve ever felt,then take away the conditions, time restrictions, and other things you know can contaminate love, then TADAA!!!

God’s love.

Forever. Unconditional. Unmatched

When you know that God loves you…no, when you even THINK that God loves you, despite all you’ve done or may do, you begin to SEE yourself and things differently. When you see differently, you MOVE different.

I just pray that you begin to think of yourself in greater ways.  You deserve it.

I love you, and I mean it

-Crys

(P.S. More to come…for real this time😊)

Escape

I screamed.

Yet no one heard through the motions of their own day

 I cried out for freedom

But was stifled by the pressure of four walls closing in on my creativity

Expression relieves the build up of every day life

To silence that?

Well, that would mean drowning in the sea of thoughts

It could mean being anchored to the mundane when I was made to soar

It would mean…

Isolation

The created completely closed off to the Creator

I need freedom.

Most of all, I need Him

I must escape

Stillness

Life is the circus

It is joyful but it stinks at times

The busyness to impress the next is daunting

It takes its toll mentally

Placed on a pedestal for scrutiny

But when the crowd is gone

Satisfied by the show

The stillness is what I long for

The quiet,

Full of peace

With the tempo of a beating heart

Steady timing each breath

I am more than alive

I am truly living.

In the stillness I find Him smiling on me

His embrace warm and familiar

Worry lets itself out the door

As His train fills the room

In my stillness there is no hoping

Just a knowing

That He Is

Let Go

I trembled

Looking down at my raw wrists and blood stains

Almost choking on a sharp inhale

I let go

Finally.

The fear weighed down my right hand

While my left was bound with regret

I dragged them both toward my destiny

But they dug into my skin

The small steps didn’t hurt as much

Then came the leaps of faith

I tripped from the entanglement

I cried but to no avail

I wondered why I couldn’t get ahead

Took a knee to talk to Him

As I brought my hands up to my chest

They were busy

While my left was bound with regret

Fear weighed down my right hand

Finally.

I let go

Almost choking on a sharp inhale

Looking down at my raw wrists and blood stains

I trembled

Finally free

 

Daggers

I checked my hands

To see if they had stopped shaking

Eyes blurry from the rush of adrenaline

As my heart attempted to break through its cage

I dodged them as much as I could

For as long as I had strength.

I managed for a while

Until I turned my back

The moment I thought I would make out without a scratch

I nearly crumbled from the burn between my shoulder blades

I was hit.

But the only bruise came to my ego

Friends turned to enemies in the blink of an eye

Throwing daggers like salt on an icy walkway

I kept my footing

Praying the poison wouldn’t overtake my heart

I ran.

Until I found the comfort of His word

I ran to Him

 

Crys

Testimony Pt. 1

tes-ti-mo-`ny:

evidence or proof provided by the existence or appearance of something; verification, confirmation, demonstration, manifestation

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God needs your testimony.

When God blesses us, He looks forward to us sharing it with others.  Why? It builds faith.

Before I share a story, in which I’ll try to condense as much as possible, I’d like to share my favorite example of God looking for a testimony!

Mark 5 talks about a woman who had constant bleeding for 12 years.  She exhausted her income and saw many doctors but nothing helped.  It said she heard about Jesus being in the area and she, illegally [that’s for another post], went out in public to see Him. She kept saying ‘Let me just touch his clothes and I’ll be healed’ (Mark 5:28, paraphrased).

She accomplished her mission in secret, but Jesus knew something happened. After His disciples thought Jesus was crazy for asking who touched him, since they were completely surrounded by people, Mark 5:33 says,

But he kept on looking around to see who had done it.”

When we pray, God hears us.  He always has and will always. Even when we feel like God has His back turned away from us, as Jesus was off to another place in this instance, His power is still available!  God is not ignorant to the blessings and miracles we experience; no matter how big or small they are. He is all knowing and ever present.

God is not looking for our testimony just for His enjoyment, He needs it to encourage others.  Our testimonies are the building blocks to another’s faith.  It’s the missing link.

The enemy loves to make us feel isolated in our challenges, making us feel as if we are the only one who has gone through it.  We know from Hebrews 4:15 that Jesus was tempted at ALL points but His resurrection is the greatest testament to God’s grace and love.

Truth is, we are not alone in our struggles.  Jesus went through them and so have many other people over the course of time.  When God brings you out, because He will, we must rejoice and TELL SOMEBODY!!

Be a tattle-tale on God and what He has done, because it is always good!

People are suffering in silence and needing to hear how God brought you out of a similar situation.  We live in a world where everyone has their own personal soapbox to stand on, speaking to an audience willing to listen.  Use your platform to encourage others and share your testimony to strengthen their faith.  I guarantee you’ll receive their testimony and rejoice with them!!!!!!

Look for Testimony Pt. 2 as I will share a testimony that helped my faith just recently!

I love you and I pray this encourages you today!

 

Crys

#FreedomFriday

Amidst the number of things that I am experiencing right now, I choose to be anchored by God’s word.  It’s not always easy, but it’s better than sitting and worrying all day.

Today I am sharing a poem that pretty much sums up a few of my feelings.

Hope Leads the Way…

She winced as the cold air pierced her cheeks like a thousand pins

The wind uncovered her ear and forced air in, in a non seductive way.

As she battled to adjust the scarf she saw them

Cuddled on a bench in the park

Smiling at one another

Their spark was enough to warm even the coldest hearts

She grinned at the sight

Hope took root as a kiss from the sun changed the mood

The thought warmed her core

Before walking away, she took another look back

Hope was the fuel that pushed her forward

Hope lead the way