The Marriage Dinner

Matthew 22:11-13

“Hey! It’s me, Donnie. I have something for you. Can you come over today?”

Ericka looked at her phone, contemplating whether she wanted to make time for this. Donnie had been introduced to her a few weeks ago by a friend. She didn’t think he was her type, but he persisted anyway. It was refreshing, yet a little annoying at times.

How many times can a person hear someone tell them, “I will never leave you”?

It was just something she wasn’t used to.

“I only have about an hour, then I have to go to work,” she texted back.

“That’s plenty of time,” he replied with an eager tone that came through even in text.

Ericka didn’t know why she agreed. When she arrived at Donnie’s house, her eyes nearly fell out of her head! His home was a sprawling mansion hidden behind a nine-foot wrought iron gate adorned with intricate designs of vines and birds.

She pulled up further, her bumper nearly touching the gate. As the gate slowly swung open, her eyes widened to see the massive house up close. Thoughts rushed through her mind as she took in the sights. Donnie didn’t look like he owned a house like this!

The polite voice on the intercom interrupted her internal questions. “Hello, how may I assist you?”

“Uh…” Ericka hesitated, “I was invited over by Donnie?”

“Wonderful! He’s been expecting you,” the voice replied cheerfully.

It felt like Ericka had to drive a mile just to get to the door. When she finally made it, Donnie was standing outside, his face lit up with excitement to see her.

“I hope you didn’t run into any trouble getting here,” Donnie said, helping her out of the car.

Ericka was too focused on the sights before her. There were fountains and hundreds of flowers planted around, bursting with colors so vibrant it was almost like she was seeing them for the first time.

“It was actually pretty easy to find,” she finally replied. “Who owns all of this?”

“I do,” Donnie admitted proudly. “Thank you for accepting the invitation.”

Ericka felt like she hit the jackpot! She didn’t care about how Donnie looked. If this was how he was living, she could learn to deal with him. Still focused on the exterior of the house and the garden area, Ericka didn’t even realize that Donnie was leading her to the front door. They were ten feet tall and elaborately designed. Ericka looked closely, running her fingers across the design.

“Was this handcrafted?” she asked, her fingers tracing the intricate carvings of mythical creatures intertwined with floral motifs.

“Yes, my son made it for me,” Donnie said, a note of pride in his voice.

“A son? Wait a minute. How old are you? You don’t look like you have a son old enough to do this!”

Ericka’s question hung in the air, mingling with a faint breeze that carried the scent of jasmine from the garden. Donnie chuckled, a warm, infectious sound that made Ericka’s initial apprehensions seem like a distant thought.

“I might look younger than I am,” Donnie replied with a wink. “Let’s just say I’ve been blessed.”

They stepped inside, and Ericka was immediately enveloped by the grandeur of the foyer. The ceiling soared high above, adorned with a crystal chandelier that scattered light across the polished marble floors like stars in a clear night sky. Paintings that looked centuries old graced the walls, each frame telling a story of heritage and timelessness.

Donnie noticed Ericka’s awe-struck expression and smiled. “It’s a lot to take in, I know. This place has been in my family for generations. Each piece you see has its own story.”

Ericka felt a mix of admiration and insignificance as she followed Donnie through the sprawling hallway. The air was cool and smelled faintly of old books and lemon polish. She couldn’t help but touch the surfaces as they passed—an ancient oak table here, a velvet-upholstered settee there.

“I must admit, I didn’t expect this,” Ericka confessed, her voice echoing slightly in the vast space.

Donnie paused before a large portrait of a stern-looking man in Victorian attire. “It’s not without its challenges and responsibilities. Everything you see comes with a story of struggle and triumph.”

As they approached a heavy wooden door at the end of the corridor, it creaked as he pushed it open, revealing a dimly lit room that contrasted sharply with the rest of the house’s opulence. Inside, the atmosphere was solemn, almost sacred, setting the stage for a revelation that Ericka could never have anticipated.

Donnie smiled warmly, shifting the tone to something more personal. “There is so much to tell you, but first I wanted to show you something.” He handed her a big purple box that shimmered in the sunlight, captivating Ericka’s attention. It was unlike anything she had seen before; the hues shifted with the light, mesmerizing and mysterious.

Ericka turned the box over in her hands, absorbed in its unique beauty. She didn’t notice the door opening or the older man who entered, looking like he might have been picked up from the men’s shelter north of Conway. It was only when the door closed behind him, releasing a tantalizing aroma into the air, that she glanced up.

“Oh my goodness! What is that? It smells… that smells fantastic!” Ericka exclaimed, her curiosity piqued not just by the box but now by the scent wafting through the air.

“I had some things whipped up for some guests,” Donnie explained. “We can go in and see what’s there, but I need you to open the box first.”

Ericka looked at Donnie, her expression a mix of confusion and a faint irritation at his insistence. “Wooow,” she said, her voice tinged with forced enthusiasm. “This is… different.”

“I had it made just for you,” Donnie beamed, clearly proud of his mysterious gift.

As they spoke, another person shuffled past—a woman who looked to be struggling with her own demons, her lips blistered, and eyes bloodshot. Ericka’s eyes narrowed slightly as she noticed the woman was wearing the same peculiar fabric that was in the box.

“I thought you said it was made just for me,” Ericka questioned, her tone laced with skepticism.

“It was,” Donnie insisted. “A lot of love, and suffering, went into having that available for you.”

Ericka’s gaze hardened as she scanned the area, noticing more individuals making their way to the door, each adorned in similar attire. “So why do they get one, too?” she asked, her voice carrying a sharp edge of accusation.

Donnie’s expression remained unfazed as he explained, “It’s a robe. You’ll need it to come inside.”

“Why can’t I just wear what I want?” Ericka challenged, her skepticism mounting.

“Well,” Donnie began, pausing to greet another passerby before returning his attention to Ericka. “I invited you here because I know you’re a special woman. I know that you’ve experienced a lot of hardship in your life, and I wanted to offer you a better one. With me.” He gestured broadly at the surroundings. “All that I have here would be yours. You don’t have to do anything; I already have help for that.”

Ericka couldn’t mask her skepticism. “There’s no way you’d be willing to take care of me for nothing. What’s the catch?” she asked, her instincts telling her that there was much more to this than a simple invitation.

“There is none. I just want to spend eternity with you. I love you,” Donnie declared, his eyes sincere.

“That sounds desperate. Besides, if you knew what I’ve done in my life, you wouldn’t want to be anywhere near me,” Ericka said, her arms crossed defensively. “I don’t want to wear this ugly robe anyway. Why can’t I just come in like this?”

“Well,” Donnie began, his smile gentle yet unwavering, “I have someone special I would like you to meet. Because he’s clean, I’ve given you something that will make you look like him.”

“It’s going to take a lot more than this robe to cover up what I’ve done,” Ericka grinned, half-mocking the simplicity of his solution.

Donnie smiled at her lovingly. “There is so much for you to learn, my dear.”

“I want to come in, but I’m not putting this on.”

“It’s the only way you’ll be able to come in, though.”

Ericka looked up and saw masses of people, all wearing the same robe, filing into the open door. There were people of all colors and backgrounds. Some skipped in with excitement; others were weeping so hard with joy. Ericka took it all in, her head swirling from all the people, before locking eyes with Donnie.

“Who are you for real?” she chided.

“I’m Donnie,” he laughed.

This time Ericka took a moment to calculate an appropriate question. “Is that short for something?”

“Actually, yes. It’s short for Adonai. I’ve been waiting to see you again and, this time, I want to invite you to live with me forever.”

“This is ridi—” Before Ericka could finish her sentence, she jumped as someone touched her foot. It was a woman, weeping so hard she could barely stand. The tattoo on the back of her neck was all too familiar. “Tiff?” Ericka was just hanging out with Tiffany the night before. She was shocked to see her like this. Tiffany was always scrappy, loved to fight. Ericka had never seen her like this before.

“Tiffany, get up girl! What are you doing?”

“E!” Tiffany greeted her, stumbling to her feet. “E, you have to come meet his son! I met him last night after I left you. I was riding home, and my brakes went out. I couldn’t stop. All I could do was cry, ‘Jesus, if you save me, I promise I’ll follow you.’”

“What?” Ericka held up her friend, “What happened?”

“I met him, E. All I know is two tires went flat and I was able to stop. I jumped out of the car and fell to my knees. Then he showed up. E, he saved my life. I know I’ve been doing wrong and I don’t deserve him, but I felt a love that I’ve never felt. You have to meet him!”

Tiffany pushed away from Ericka and ran the rest of the way until she disappeared behind the doors.

Adonai stood by with a soft smile on his face. “Ericka, I will never force you to come this way. It would have to be your decision.”

Ericka looked at the door, trying to see if she could spot Tiffany, but it was no use. There were too many people flooding in. She took in a deep breath and pushed the box into Adonai’s hands. It seemed like she stared at him for eternity. Clenching her jaw, Ericka took off the top and put on the robe.

Adonai smiled. “So much for you to learn. Good thing we have the time now.”

Matthew 22:11-14

Two Things…

I guess I should actually use this more often then I have been. Anyways…

Two things have stopped my progress this year:

  1. Complacency
  2. Feeling unworthy

I grew up in a household that did a lot of comparing and never really celebrated the unique qualities that make a person. After a while, I just learned to create a little bubble of security and settle there. As much as this year has taken from so many people, that bit of understanding was something that I gained.

I can talk about how both of those things play so well together, but I wasn’t trying to make this particular post super long. What I will say is that choosing to intentionally be of service to others has allowed me to discover a little more of who I am…and I’m ok with that.

Can I be weird sometimes? Yup. I mean, I poke my little sister in the boob to show affection!

That was just the first example to come to mind so I’ll digress.

Whether I choose to be unusual, emotional, quiet, chatty, or stoic I NOW understand that God loves all of that.

So as I quickly write out my thoughts at 1:38a EST on December 31, 2020, I am making a decision to live. Like…really live.

Like doing whatever ‘it’ is, even if I’m doing ‘it’ afraid.

But knowing how loved I am in the process.

Dear friend,

God loves everything about you and those things you don’t like about yourself didn’t change how Jesus felt about you when He took your sins. He saw you right where you are -right now- and He loves you ever more 🙂

Crystal

Think Different, See Different

Hey Beautiful people!!!

It’s been a good little while since I made a post, but I am fixing that problem RIGHT NOW…by making a new one 🙂

Quick Background…

So I’m used to being in the background and in my own thoughts.  I’m great with writing, and speaking, but I prefer the former and not the latter. It’s been that way most of my life. 🤷🏾‍♀️

Like I’m really ok with helping others with their success and watching them bask in the fruits of their labors

But God saw differently

Over the last year or so, I have been doing outreach at my church. (Totally God’s idea, not my own)

So now, not only do I do outreach (Again, not my idea‼) I am one of the LEADERS of Outreach.🤦🏾‍♀️  So I have to teach others.🤦🏾‍♀️🤦🏾‍♀️

So now that you’re all caught up, I give you the reason for this little nugget that came to mind below:

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Yesterday, Jan 4th, was our very first outreach event of the year and it went great!!

17 people received prayer and 1 dedicated their life to God at a homeless shelter (Never thought I’d genuinely be excited about that! That’s for another post #YayJesus)

But I came across this one man who was ‘content’ with his homelessness. Somethings I just brush off, but this made me want to ask him questions.

Really and truly, he couldn’t give me a straight answer. He talked about Donald Trump, his education (HS and Community College graduate), he even boasted on the fact that the most money he’s ever had at one time was $2,000.

No 😐 he was legit happy about that.

But because of what I know about God, this was unsettling.  Of course I had a rebuttal.

“That’s not what God said He wanted for you, though. You were meant for more”

Boom.

I felt good about myself for a hot second- I thought it was mic drop worthy…ish, until he came back with his own…

“If I don’t think that applies to me, you can’t make me think otherwise.”

Although I was ready to jump in with scripture, God spoke to me and said, “Now you see what I see.” I couldn’t even say anything any more.

This was the whole reason why I do outreach!!

How many times have you seen others happy (blessed, prospering, free, etc.) and even thought for a moment, ‘That can’t happen for me’?

I’ll never do…
I can’t do…
I don’t see [blank] happening for me
[Blank] is not possible
I made too many mistakes to experience…

I’d be remiss if I didn’t offer scripture, so Proverbs 23:7 says “for as he thinks in his heart, so is he”

James 3 talks about how what we say can set the course of our lives, but it starts with what we think about ourselves.

In the age of information I find that the most bothersome thing is that people genuinely don’t know how much God loves them.

To the person on the other side of this screen, God loves you soooooo very much!! Think of the greatest love you’ve ever felt,then take away the conditions, time restrictions, and other things you know can contaminate love, then TADAA!!!

God’s love.

Forever. Unconditional. Unmatched

When you know that God loves you…no, when you even THINK that God loves you, despite all you’ve done or may do, you begin to SEE yourself and things differently. When you see differently, you MOVE different.

I just pray that you begin to think of yourself in greater ways.  You deserve it.

I love you, and I mean it

-Crys

(P.S. More to come…for real this time😊)

Childlike Affection

Tonight I baby sat my friend’s son.

My own son was very helpful the entire time until he heard me speaking the Word of God over this cute toddler.  I admit, I felt the shift in the atmosphere but I couldn’t address it at the moment.

As the time neared for both children to go to sleep, I asked my son to get ready for bed.  That’s nothing out of the ordinary.  I went up a few moments later to find him ready for bed, having done all he knows he needs to do, but he was fighting back tears.

I asked him if he wanted to talk and he told me ‘no’.  After a barrage a questions, he basically told me that no hug, no kiss, and no talking would make him feel better.  I was saddened by the fact that I knew something was bothering him, but he chose to hold it in.

I embraced him, firmly, and it was enough to push out those waiting streams from his eyes.  He finally expressed that he felt that I liked the toddler more than him because I spoke nice words.  I speak those words to my son as well.

Of course I felt objection rising to my lips but I let my little guy express all his feelings.  I asked for forgiveness, we reconciled, the atmosphere was more positive, and I left him to his dreams.

It got me to thinking about how many people, especially men (in my experience) receive time, kind words, and attention consistently.  The moment it’s shared with another, problems can occur.

I don’t fault my son at all.  Even though he is not an only child, he is MY only child.  Of course he receives all of my attention and more so I am not surprised by how he reacted.

It showed me, though, how much I need to (1) express those kind words to him more and (2) continue to lead him into the arms of Christ.

I’m a single mom.  I can’t be all that he needs (as much as I used to try).  It was hard enough for me to let go and trust God at His word when He told me he would keep my son.

But this showed me how emotionally fragile many people are when hurt is experienced or they are searching for acceptance and fullness.  I was there before.  I searched in many different places, things, and people to fill a void that only God could take care of.

I say all this to say that we all, every one of us, are childlike in seeking affection and approval in one way or another.  But God has set His affection on us (Deuteronomy 10:15, NIV) and He has approved us (Romans 14:18, KJV) as we are in Christ Jesus.

God has so many wonderful things to say about you right now.

Are you willing to listen?

Let Go

I trembled

Looking down at my raw wrists and blood stains

Almost choking on a sharp inhale

I let go

Finally.

The fear weighed down my right hand

While my left was bound with regret

I dragged them both toward my destiny

But they dug into my skin

The small steps didn’t hurt as much

Then came the leaps of faith

I tripped from the entanglement

I cried but to no avail

I wondered why I couldn’t get ahead

Took a knee to talk to Him

As I brought my hands up to my chest

They were busy

While my left was bound with regret

Fear weighed down my right hand

Finally.

I let go

Almost choking on a sharp inhale

Looking down at my raw wrists and blood stains

I trembled

Finally free

 

Daggers

I checked my hands

To see if they had stopped shaking

Eyes blurry from the rush of adrenaline

As my heart attempted to break through its cage

I dodged them as much as I could

For as long as I had strength.

I managed for a while

Until I turned my back

The moment I thought I would make out without a scratch

I nearly crumbled from the burn between my shoulder blades

I was hit.

But the only bruise came to my ego

Friends turned to enemies in the blink of an eye

Throwing daggers like salt on an icy walkway

I kept my footing

Praying the poison wouldn’t overtake my heart

I ran.

Until I found the comfort of His word

I ran to Him

 

Crys

Testimony Pt. 1

tes-ti-mo-`ny:

evidence or proof provided by the existence or appearance of something; verification, confirmation, demonstration, manifestation

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God needs your testimony.

When God blesses us, He looks forward to us sharing it with others.  Why? It builds faith.

Before I share a story, in which I’ll try to condense as much as possible, I’d like to share my favorite example of God looking for a testimony!

Mark 5 talks about a woman who had constant bleeding for 12 years.  She exhausted her income and saw many doctors but nothing helped.  It said she heard about Jesus being in the area and she, illegally [that’s for another post], went out in public to see Him. She kept saying ‘Let me just touch his clothes and I’ll be healed’ (Mark 5:28, paraphrased).

She accomplished her mission in secret, but Jesus knew something happened. After His disciples thought Jesus was crazy for asking who touched him, since they were completely surrounded by people, Mark 5:33 says,

But he kept on looking around to see who had done it.”

When we pray, God hears us.  He always has and will always. Even when we feel like God has His back turned away from us, as Jesus was off to another place in this instance, His power is still available!  God is not ignorant to the blessings and miracles we experience; no matter how big or small they are. He is all knowing and ever present.

God is not looking for our testimony just for His enjoyment, He needs it to encourage others.  Our testimonies are the building blocks to another’s faith.  It’s the missing link.

The enemy loves to make us feel isolated in our challenges, making us feel as if we are the only one who has gone through it.  We know from Hebrews 4:15 that Jesus was tempted at ALL points but His resurrection is the greatest testament to God’s grace and love.

Truth is, we are not alone in our struggles.  Jesus went through them and so have many other people over the course of time.  When God brings you out, because He will, we must rejoice and TELL SOMEBODY!!

Be a tattle-tale on God and what He has done, because it is always good!

People are suffering in silence and needing to hear how God brought you out of a similar situation.  We live in a world where everyone has their own personal soapbox to stand on, speaking to an audience willing to listen.  Use your platform to encourage others and share your testimony to strengthen their faith.  I guarantee you’ll receive their testimony and rejoice with them!!!!!!

Look for Testimony Pt. 2 as I will share a testimony that helped my faith just recently!

I love you and I pray this encourages you today!

 

Crys