Peace Be Still

I can’t tell you the level of conviction I’ve received in my spirit for NOT writing…but let’s digress for a second.

I was sitting on my bed, reading over the draft of an e-book I’d like to put out about…healthy stuff. I released one last year for Cyber Monday and and I wanted to have more information available to people.

So anyway, I was taking a break and began listening to a short video that I’ve actually heard a few times now. I mean, I made time to hear this message. I took detailed notes about what God was trying to say to me at that time.

I paused the video and replayed what was said, then continue on again. The video is only about 15 minutes long, but it took me nearly ninety minutes to get through it; that’s how detailed my notes were.

But as I’m putting my computer down a moment ago, listening to this message AGAIN, I hear something I hadn’t heard the last time I played this message.

I…MISSED SOMETHING??!!

As the waves of a crisis began to swell in my mind, I had to shake the thoughts away or I’d miss the download that was about to occur.

I needed to hear this particular point at the specific time I heard it. Here’s what I heard:

If Jesus said, ‘Peace be still’ then that means peace was moving.

Pastor Tony Evans

[Disclaimer: Now I KNOW the Bible scholars will say that Jesus was telling the sea to be at peace but it still fits]

Before I could throw my phone across the room, I had thoughts flooding in from every which way but it was two I settled on.

(Spoiler alert: The second thought cancels out the first}

1. So if peace chucked a deuce, it’s because it wasn’t trying to stay around anxiety and fear.

If you go back a few scriptures, this is the story of a storm tossing the boat Jesus slept on while His disciples panicked.

Jesus is the Prince of Peace, which means He rules over it. If light and dark can’t be in the same space, then neither can peace and fear, or peace and anxiety…or peace and frustration, or peace and jealousy. You get the point. So Jesus dipped.

Buuuuuuut…God said He would never leave us nor forsake us (Hebrews 13:5) and Jesus gave us HIs peace!! (John 14:27). God is not the type to run from a battle anyway and Jesus didn’t physically leave the boat…so I had to throw out that whole thing.

But then came the second and most sobering thought.

2. So if peace was moved, it’s because WE(I) moved it.

I instantly thought of my mom’s cat. My parents have a little light that they shine when they are helping the little feline stay active. They wiggle the light on the floor to get the cat’s attention before jerking the light a few feet to the right. As they move the light, Mora is bouncing around the floor to try to get it.

If our peace is not rested on Christ, we have to put it somewhere, right?

Maybe we put ‘peace’ in certain groups of people, (Black or white. Dems or Reps).

Maybe we put ‘peace’ in more money, a bigger house, a new car, another relationship even when we aren’t over the last. There are so many places we can ‘put peace’ but in the end things don’t really work out or, if they do, there’s always a feeling that something’s missing.

Jesus was very specific in the type of peace He gave. Let’s look at John 14: 29:

Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid. (Emphasis added)

So there’s FALSE Peace and REAL Peace.

More money won’t bring you peace. More people won’t bring you peace. Another relationship won’t bring you peace.

True peace is contingent on it’s source. In order for peace to be sustained it must rest on a firm foundation. One that’s been tested under the most extreme circumstances and still maintain it’s integrity. One that can endure to the end, no matter how long it takes.

Christ has proven to be the only foundation suitable enough for peace to rest and that’s the place God wants us to rest in. For those who don’t know, the Bible is a compilation of writings by different authors that point to one person: JESUS! God’s whole mission was to get us back in right standing with Him and the only way to do that was to sacrifice His perfect Son.

We have to remember Christ in all things. When we try to find peace in other things, it brings trouble in all things because it’s not the peace Jesus gave to us.

I pray that you let go of the counterfeit peace, the one that fades, and hold tight to the Prince of Peace, the One who’s everlasting!

Love you,

Crystal

Two Things…

I guess I should actually use this more often then I have been. Anyways…

Two things have stopped my progress this year:

  1. Complacency
  2. Feeling unworthy

I grew up in a household that did a lot of comparing and never really celebrated the unique qualities that make a person. After a while, I just learned to create a little bubble of security and settle there. As much as this year has taken from so many people, that bit of understanding was something that I gained.

I can talk about how both of those things play so well together, but I wasn’t trying to make this particular post super long. What I will say is that choosing to intentionally be of service to others has allowed me to discover a little more of who I am…and I’m ok with that.

Can I be weird sometimes? Yup. I mean, I poke my little sister in the boob to show affection!

That was just the first example to come to mind so I’ll digress.

Whether I choose to be unusual, emotional, quiet, chatty, or stoic I NOW understand that God loves all of that.

So as I quickly write out my thoughts at 1:38a EST on December 31, 2020, I am making a decision to live. Like…really live.

Like doing whatever ‘it’ is, even if I’m doing ‘it’ afraid.

But knowing how loved I am in the process.

Dear friend,

God loves everything about you and those things you don’t like about yourself didn’t change how Jesus felt about you when He took your sins. He saw you right where you are -right now- and He loves you ever more 🙂

Crystal

Sometimes…

Sometimes there’s an eerie comfort in the lies we tell ourselves
Kinda like a pair of jeans that fit too tight
But still…We wrestle against truth, where peace resides, because conflict is appealing
It’s much safer to fit in
Safer for our light to be blocked in at all sides

Until night becomes the ‘reliable’ friend

Have we forgotten that light is always ‘It’?
Even while darkness makes a feeble attempt to avoid being tagged
Such childish games we play.
The freedom of a breeze is more calming than the chaos created in trying to tame it
Forcing air into a tight spots just creates a storm
It’s better to take the chance of finding life outside our comfort
By being committed to Christ who calmed storms with His words and loves the way we are made

The Sun is Coming…

Sometimes it’s cloudy
And the sun peaks out just long enough
To see another storm brewing.
But that’s ok.
Because right now…
The leaves are open
And the grass is fuller
And the clouds look like fluffy pillows
That lull you to sweet dreams
Right now the kids are playing
With no care in the world
Sincerity is seen in the eyes of neighbors
And a small smile with a gentle nods
Means, “I’m with you.”
Storms come
The winds grow heavy
And sometimes rain drops hit hard
Like a crashing wave
But the Sun is coming
And that’s reason enough to smile

Shower Thoughts, Episode 1

Shower

On this episode of Shower Thoughts, our main character comes into the house after hours of standing outside, waiting in long lines to enter grocery stores.  This global pandemic has really changed the way shopping happens!

 

Anyway…

After stripping her clothes at the door, running up the stairs, and turning on the shower she hops in.

The shower was steamy, just like she often enjoyed. As the soap washed away from her face, a thought came to mind…

It’s hard for anyone to move forward when they are still ‘bleeding’

As she pondered that statement longer, she realized that many people are walking around wounded from their past.  Unresolved emotions often leave a trail that can easily be traced from one relational encounter to another.

“This is just the way I am” is no longer a line that can be used to lull unsuspecting victims into the trap of excusing certain behaviors by not acknowledging them.  It’s a complete turn off.

The only blood we are to be covered with is that of Jesus Christ, which was shed on the cross for our sins and salvation.

Trying to put on a brave face or ignore feelings to function is NOT sacrifice; it’s suicide.

Unforgiveness, unaddressed traumas, pride, anger, jealousy, fear, and the like are all things that can literally, and spiritually, kill.

Don’t let your heart be hardened.  Don’t write off ALL people because of a few.  Don’t blame God for what people do.

He’s not people.  He’s God and He loves you…still.

Choose to be better, today.  If you’ve already made that choice, welcome to the other side of the storm.

It gets better.  I promise.

Tune in next time for the next episode of Shower Thoughts as our main character tries to navigate the work-life balance in the midst of a newly established virtual classroom for an eight year old…

I Want To Inspire (June 2014)

I am sharing this post that I wrote in 2014 to serve as a time stamp.  Things are about to happen quickly…

 

I wish I could inspire
…and I desire to uplift
But this rift grows wider between God and I
He is revealing new things
But the day brings brutal winds
I bend, instead of standing firm in its midst
The word of God is my food
However, there are times when I choose not to eat
My feet chase after my mind
Which is running frantically in circles
My rest is fleeting
Anxiety reaching its highest pace
I search for comfort
I look for truth
But I cannot find it trying to please whomever
My son is healthy
He eats and sleeps well
He wants for nothing while I traverse this hell
I want to tell them it’s all working
Tell them to be strong
Tell them to keep pressing
Despite everything that seems to have gone wrong
No, I am not rich but I give what I have to all
I know what I want to do, but I must do what is called
I am not where I desire to be
But my best is still traveling through heavy traffic
I want to inspire others
But my wayward thinking
Prevents me from seeing
That…I already have